dear Heavenly Father,

i know i am not what i thought i would be.
am i what you thought i would be?
are you disappointed in me?
can you make me better?

i stop in mid-life sometimes and look at my reflection.
i am not sure what i see.
so many hopes. so many dreams.

i knew one time from reading that life is never what you planned.
i know now from living life. it is a different knowledge.

where do i go now?
how do i find my worth? what is my path?
how do i find my voice?

forgive me for my inequalities. my iniquities. the ways i do not measure up.
comfort me. do not abandon me.
please, do not leave me.

i need thee, oh i need thee. every hour i need thee.
i believe in thee, and if thou didst create me,
there must be something beautiful here.
help me to find it.

amen. for tonight.